The past few days I have been thinking about true happiness... What is it, when will I have it, and how can I receive it. Initially I thought about my house being finished, about my girls growing up and behaving like good girls should, and having the "perfect" figure. That is when I will really be happy right???

My girls all went back to school, and I am alone in the morning just me and my thoughts. Searching for happiness, I came home the other day to Abe once again working on the house, and I think he could tell that I was blue. He showed me these ads on Mormon.org called I am a Mormon. WOW! These people have overcome huge trials and hardships, and are truly happy, because they have developed a relationship with their Heavenly Father. I watched, and through my river of tears knew, I have been taking the opportunity to find real happiness for granted. Christ said, "I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it."

I will find joy in my struggle to be a good mother, wife, sister, church leader, and friend. I can make peace with my body. As Nini says, "I am not my body." I will take care of it, like my smile, and be grateful for good health.

Today is over, and tomorrow I will do my part to prove to myself and my daughters that a relationship with our Savior will bring JOY!!! Join me....